annie blog

da old year

muahaha i have employed blogging time travel tactics and just published a post about my 2025 intentions but made it look like it was published last april. i did in fact write it last april, but i didn't have (or know about) bearblog at the time, so my plan was to make a whole custom neocities blog setup and then post it, and then i procrastinated on that for months, etc etc.

but! it's a new year now, and i want to reflect on those intentions.

gym bro intentions

i did not do either of these things! i stopped lifting pretty early on last year, though i have light plans to get back to it this year as cross training for running. and ahhh v6… my climbing goal for several years now… it still feels so far out of reach. i climbed a decent amount last year, and i am getting steadily stronger muscles-wise, but i think i've hit a hard plateau that can only be conquered by focusing on improving technique. thankfully i have friends who are much better technical climbers than i am, and i will be studying their movements closely 🧐

also twenty-twenty-SIX seems like a fated year to send v6 no?? let's make it happen lads…

artist intentions

oof i fell off on this so hard. i made a few games at the beginning of the year in everest pipkin's SFPC class, then just got completely overwhelmed with life and didn't make anything else all year.

i could write thousands upon thousands of words about my intermittent struggles to make art, but now is not the time for those words. all i'll say is that i don't have much of an intention to make games in the new year, but i would like to polish up some old work and get it on my itch, and make my itch page look nicer :~)

craftsperson intentions

yay i did two of these!! i still dream of knitting but for now i will admire it from afar.

i am lowkey shocked that i've managed to keep up a semi-regular blogging practice since getting on bearblog. i'm not kidding when i say this might be the biggest indication of personal growth for me that i've encountered in the past decade –– i've tried to start blogging so many times in the past and could not get myself to commit! but something has changed within me, and it's finally stuck.

also i think i have, slowly but surely, started making tastier food. i feel like i spent yeaaaars making consistently mid food, without many highlights, but this year i made a good number of legit bangers and i am happy about that.

chinese-american intentions

i did both! woot. i don't think my mandarin has improved substantially but i am practicing it more regularly than before. and i spent a good amount of time last year doing organizing work and poli ed with the ESL/CLJ group. i don't feel totally satisfied, because a lot of the work that i personally did was just attending meetings and doing administrative stuff (which obvi is an inherently necessary part of organizing, but i think it wasn't paired with enough actual community work), but since november i've been helping with more anti-*** community defense work, which has felt more urgent and meaningful.

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overall, i started some new things last year that i am happy about! i do feel sad about the things that i wanted to do and did not do, but i'm beginning to recognize that trying to do too many things can only work against me. like literally, trying to do too many things results in me doing even fewer things than normal. i think a big intention in 2026 for me will be to focus on doing fewer things, and to put my all into those few things. <3